That is by far the most catchiest title I've ever written.



I've been really moody lately. I've been walking around with this heavy feeling on my heart like I've done something wrong, or like something wrong has been dome to me.
I talked to my adviser the other day(who is also my art teacher)about our(mostly her) depressing lifestyles and how we(I) should just suck it up & deal with it.
A little while ago, Todd was giving me some shit like he did back in 2007

I dont want to go into full detail, but lets just say that its a huge deal over something so little, and he just has to be a whiny little pissball face about it.
& I've come to realize, it's incredibly hard for me to let things go. I dont know why though. Ex: I honestly dont want Kaelea to be a ninja/assassin thingy anymore but for some reason I just can't accept the fact that I dont want that.
that make any sense?
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yeahhh....


Because of the whole Todd thing, I've been having some stomach problems like I had in 2007. My adviser thinks that I'm depressed & I'm like "well shit..."
I talked to my mom and dad(Phyllis and Steve, or aka Menopause and Wrinkles)
Menopa--I mean, mom, emailed Todd:
Todd, What you told Drew was really hurtful. She has enough on her plate just being a kid without that.

I am going back to an old saying-if you cannot say anything nice, don't say anything. Play nice. If you want to be pissed off at someone, let it be me, or better placed, yourself and don't take it out on the kid. And don't get me started on the fact that you flew to Seattle and spent a week and didn't call or come here. Remember, we have always made time for you when we were down there.
Love,
Mom

Woo!

Other than that, I still have that guilty feeling && stomach problems, which is causing me to be moody to other people & not want to do my work, so as a result, I'm failing a majority of my classes.
Deja vu...

Right now my main goal is to get my grades back up, which I'm really trying to do. It's really hard though when you feel like shit. ):
The Peru trip is just right around the corner, and I want no less than a 3.0 when I get on that plane.
I would say a 4.0 but well all know that's one hell of a fat chance :D

I've also had a huuuuuge lack of sleep for 3 weeks. I'm just laying in bed for hours doing nothing but trying to get to sleep. I'm worrying and thinking and asking myself questions, trying to solve all of my problems by myself and coming up with theory's on why things happen and why they are.
I know it prolly sounds confusing... My mind tends to wander into really really deep thoughts, then I think about those thoughts and why I thought about them... Y'know?
the brain is such a confusing thing.
All I know is that I'm getting no more than 5 hours of sleep at night & I fall asleep in class.
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So how's your life going? (: